I sit here, day-to-day wondering what the f*** I am doing. I thought this was what I wanted. I thought this was something that was going to change my life and something that was going to pay off in the long run. I'll admit it, I was wrong. I was so sick of having it…
Truth
We had a moment. A moment of weakness. I felt so confused at what was going on and where I stood on everything and I just couldn't open up. I couldn't let go. Then he said something, something that brought it all out. He was blunt, he was honest and that blew me away. At…
.simple.
This morning I get to work and I'm sitting here thinking, "wow, I really shared a lot with this person" The more I thought the more the tears started to well up in my eyes. I haven't know him for very long and there is a lot that I don't know about him. I haven't…
Counting Stars
2014, What are you going to throw at me this year. Some times I get nervous. There's always something that comes up that really throws me for a loop. This year, I'm excited. I'm ready to make this year something that I can handle. Only allowing those in my life that fit, before it was…
Is it time yet?
Well I've always had this dream about moving away and starting my own life. Free of judgment, free of lies, and free of family. They always say that your family is there for you when your friends walk out and such. Well there's only a few people who have ever burned me so bad it…
Secrets
THEY ARE EVERYWHERE!!! "Oh you must be a trust fund kid" REALLY?! My father is a truck driver and my mother has been a stay at home mom for 21 years... I moved out 3 years ago... Do I really fake it that good that everyone thinks that everything is fine in my "perfect" little…
Gravity
It's funny looking back now. "WHY?! Why are you ending this!" He screamed at me. Asking me the unheard of questions that you just don't ask a girl who has completely given up. "Gravity." I replied with a smile on my face. I had been in the bathroom packing to go home for the weekend.…
When?
I've come to a conclusion... I AM NOT READY FOR A RELATIONSHIP!!! I'm so tiered of everyone wanting to take things so fast! What happened to getting to know someone? What happened to limits? Boundaries? What happened to hard-earned love? In all honesty I don't know if I will ever feel what I did again.…
Fucked up again… Surprised?
I knew the distance wouldn't work... more or less I knew that if he didn't fight for me, I wasn't going to even try. I got crushed once... it hurt, bad. I've had a lot of time to think... I hide a lot from my partner. Whenever something is going wrong in my own personal…
Time for change.
I took a chance. This weekend was a huge step for me. I've been under the weather the last couple days and there's been a lot of time to think. It's time to let go of things that could never be, things that aren't good for me either. A lifestyle change. It's time I start…
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