My hand is still bruised from the door that mouthed off when I was angry. My ego is bruised from losing my temper again. I don't know how to keep it locked up. It's overflowing with emotions and I'm so angry. When we're little, we think that our parents have it all figured out. We…
A note you’ll never see
I tried. I went out. I had a good time. I didn't want it to end. When it ends is when your memory comes back. The routine. The fight. I posted smiles and luxury. But I'm crying in sweatpants and an old t-shirt. Reality is, you left me haunted. I'm plagued by the memories of…
Here we are….
There's something that happened... self realization. Tantrums, outbursts, impulsive behavior. Understanding the last 29 years of life. Not only understanding but now trying to improve it. Taking someone from a pedestal of perfection and tearing them down to less than a peasant. Removing people because they didn't do what I wanted. And when told "no",…
Alone
Another night. Another lonely night. There's peace when you're next to me. There's security. When you're gone, it's quiet. It's dark. It's... not the same. Something has happened and it's unsettling that I'm alright with it. I'm yours. There's no more fighting that... But do you know that you hold the best part of me?…
Oh Hey…
Oh hey, I love you. I know that forward but I feel like if I were to every leave this world unexpected. I would want you to know how much you meant to me. Your cologne is stained in my hair, I can still feel your skin on my finger tips and your eyes are…
What now?
Monday struck with truth. I had made a promise to be honest with another human but what about myself? Was I truly being honest with myself and my situation? There was a lot that I was holding on to and it wasn't because of that person, it was because it was things that I had…
Just thinking… Again
We put our best out there. Explain our truths, our lies and why we are flawed. Divulge our secrets, let down our mask and breath. But just for a moment. Then the wall goes up. The sentences are short. Words get colder and secrets are never spoken of. The moments we allow ourselves to give…
.simple.
This morning I get to work and I'm sitting here thinking, "wow, I really shared a lot with this person" The more I thought the more the tears started to well up in my eyes. I haven't know him for very long and there is a lot that I don't know about him. I haven't…
Gravity
It's funny looking back now. "WHY?! Why are you ending this!" He screamed at me. Asking me the unheard of questions that you just don't ask a girl who has completely given up. "Gravity." I replied with a smile on my face. I had been in the bathroom packing to go home for the weekend.…
Fucked up again… Surprised?
I knew the distance wouldn't work... more or less I knew that if he didn't fight for me, I wasn't going to even try. I got crushed once... it hurt, bad. I've had a lot of time to think... I hide a lot from my partner. Whenever something is going wrong in my own personal…
this.life 