You should come through... Friday, Saturday, Sunday... wished for Monday... Hoped for Tuesday... The attention. The acknowledgment. Sunday, the sunset. Saturday, the win. Friday, the chance. "I'm conflicted and addicted, so come over and make up my mind" It lingers- that fire. Light me up and I'll burn for you.
Chasing Fire
I broke it. I had something really really good. I had loyalty and respect and I broke it. I have a subconscious that will try and demolish everything I have. She's a sad little girl living inside of me that holds the emotions that I don't like showing, talking about or dealing with. She holds…
I’d say something but…
When I start with a lot had changed... that isn't even the half of it... I'm different. I'm afraid. I'm quiet and I'm alone. Not for lack of trying. I continue to try. I continue to make things work. But for what. I'm cursed and blessed with this ability to feel. Feel everything. Feel the…
Tonight 7.18.18
I don't wanna live for nothing, I just wanna be something. Come let me up, can you hear me now. You're sitting there in front of me, flawless. I was wondering today why I couldn't write anything when I'm incredibly happy... and maybe that just because that's the state that I'm always in when I'm…
Charcuterie Board
It's funny because I had no idea what it was. It's amazing because it was new, fresh, and quite tasty. It's perfect because it was you. No expectations, just us. Two people finding their way through the storm and enjoying the breath of fresh air that blows in with the presence of a kind human.…
**New
Something happens when you disconnect from one human and connect with another. There's a sense of the unknown, it's a little scary. There's a worry if they feel the same and then there's the process of getting to know another person all over again. Where they came from, where they want to go but most…
Is this ok?
Something is happening. A total shut down. I am closed off but I'm open to the rest of the world. I'm funny again. I'm confident again. I have a pain in my chest but I know it's going to fade. I know it's all going to be ok because I will heal this time. I…
What now?
Monday struck with truth. I had made a promise to be honest with another human but what about myself? Was I truly being honest with myself and my situation? There was a lot that I was holding on to and it wasn't because of that person, it was because it was things that I had…
I’m working…
As I try to be successful I study things like this... Don't fear alone time. Don't dwell on the past. Don't feel the worlds owes you. Don't expect immediate results. Don't worry about pleasing everyone. Don't waste time feelings sorry for your self. Don't waste energy on things you can't control. Don't let others influence…
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