I’ve come to a conclusion…

I AM NOT READY FOR A RELATIONSHIP!!!

I’m so tiered of everyone wanting to take things so fast!
What happened to getting to know someone?
What happened to limits? Boundaries?
What happened to hard-earned love?

In all honesty I don’t know if I will ever feel what I did again.
When everything that I thought was real got swept away from me.
The heavens crashed down and the room went black.

I will however forever remember the first time.
The words came out with a river of emotion and everything was so clear.
The warmth erupted from deep within, the feeling was so powerful it could have sent the strongest man to his knees.
I’ll feel that again. I know I will, and I won’t give up until I do.

I’ll stay honest, I’ll stay true, and I’ll stay afloat.

That feeling still makes my heart warm to the core. Even though he wasn’t the one.
I know what I want, I know what it’s supposed to feel like.

I’ve known what love is.
Beautiful, painful, overwhelming love.

And I survived.