My hand is still bruised from the door that mouthed off when I was angry. My ego is bruised from losing my temper again. I don't know how to keep it locked up. It's overflowing with emotions and I'm so angry. When we're little, we think that our parents have it all figured out. We…
A note you’ll never see
I tried. I went out. I had a good time. I didn't want it to end. When it ends is when your memory comes back. The routine. The fight. I posted smiles and luxury. But I'm crying in sweatpants and an old t-shirt. Reality is, you left me haunted. I'm plagued by the memories of…
Here we are….
There's something that happened... self realization. Tantrums, outbursts, impulsive behavior. Understanding the last 29 years of life. Not only understanding but now trying to improve it. Taking someone from a pedestal of perfection and tearing them down to less than a peasant. Removing people because they didn't do what I wanted. And when told "no",…
Alone
Another night. Another lonely night. There's peace when you're next to me. There's security. When you're gone, it's quiet. It's dark. It's... not the same. Something has happened and it's unsettling that I'm alright with it. I'm yours. There's no more fighting that... But do you know that you hold the best part of me?…
Oh Hey…
Oh hey, I love you. I know that forward but I feel like if I were to every leave this world unexpected. I would want you to know how much you meant to me. Your cologne is stained in my hair, I can still feel your skin on my finger tips and your eyes are…
The right time
When? Here's the questions. What circumstance makes it okay to breakdown when ever? Where is the appropriate place? When is it the right time to break down? There is never going to be an ideal time to not be okay. There's this expectation that if there's anything wrong with you, well hold it in, wait until…
So Much…
So much and in so little time. I don't get this. I don't understand it and in ways I don't want to understand it. There's a side of me that is hidden, there's a side that I don't show unless it's forced out. This afternoon, it came out. For years I've been the black sheep.…
What does it mean?
Alright let's take a step back for a moment... A lot had happened in the last few weeks... I mean A LOT. But getting back to the basics... What is love? Now don't get me wrong, I know we all have our own definitions of the four letter word... But what do I believe love…
.simple.
This morning I get to work and I'm sitting here thinking, "wow, I really shared a lot with this person" The more I thought the more the tears started to well up in my eyes. I haven't know him for very long and there is a lot that I don't know about him. I haven't…
When?
I've come to a conclusion... I AM NOT READY FOR A RELATIONSHIP!!! I'm so tiered of everyone wanting to take things so fast! What happened to getting to know someone? What happened to limits? Boundaries? What happened to hard-earned love? In all honesty I don't know if I will ever feel what I did again.…
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