As I try to be successful I study things like this... Don't fear alone time. Don't dwell on the past. Don't feel the worlds owes you. Don't expect immediate results. Don't worry about pleasing everyone. Don't waste time feelings sorry for your self. Don't waste energy on things you can't control. Don't let others influence…
I think…
I started writing on this site about 4 or 5 years ago and my reason for doing this was to get it all out there and let it go... So, here we go. I have my private posts because they are something that I can see and I can go back to so I remember…
Today
As I was walking out on the lot today I noticed something. And not just anything, I noticed a dead bird laying in the parking lot. I took the time to kneel down and actually see the corpse of the bird and I felt a sadness fall over me. There's a beauty to this life…
The right time
When? Here's the questions. What circumstance makes it okay to breakdown when ever? Where is the appropriate place? When is it the right time to break down? There is never going to be an ideal time to not be okay. There's this expectation that if there's anything wrong with you, well hold it in, wait until…
So this day…
On this day I finally managed to get on your nerves... Is it wrong to think that it was kind of amusing? You get this adorable look on your face that just makes me smile, which probably makes you more irritated but i now understand the expression "you're so cute when your mad". My love,…
Trying something new…
Here goes... A few months ago I met this guy who came in with his brother to buy a car. Super cool guy, wasn't really looking for anything. Then a couple of months later I ran into that same guy at a local bar. I was curious. Messaged his brother and pulled a lame excuse…
“Thinking of you”
My give a damn is really busted. I really thought that maybe I would get over what happened and give like a third chance but I really don't think that is going to happen. I'm ok forgetting everything happened. That switch has been turned off, I'm just done. Ready to move on to bigger and…
All Hallows’ Eve
Trick or treat smell my feet! It's Halloween in a small town. All the kids will be out dressed at their favorite animals and superheros and running up and down the street begging for just another candy bar. They'll come to your door and say with such delight "TRICK OR TREAT!!!" I've never really been…
Today I learned something…
Well I decided that I wasn't just going to have you tell my family how you feel. So I texted you... That was dumb. I find that history is repeating it's self. Someone who gave you everything you ever wanted, the lust, the lack of arguments, instant apology. Someone who is terrified to lose you.…
Christmas
"don't you mean OUR house" "my second and last wife" I had it all gone. All the memories. All the lies. It was gone. Then you came back, you made it easy. You opened a door for a new beginning to an old flame. You chose to light that flame. Then you put it out…
this.life 