I tried. I went out. I had a good time. I didn't want it to end. When it ends is when your memory comes back. The routine. The fight. I posted smiles and luxury. But I'm crying in sweatpants and an old t-shirt. Reality is, you left me haunted. I'm plagued by the memories of…
How long?
How long? How long have I loved you? How long have your eyes danced off the light like emerald jewels? How long has your skin glistened off the TV light? How long has your hand accidently touched mine and sent a rush through my veins? How long has your presence startled me and taken my…
Well… What now?
Something has happened... I feel. I feel everything. I see. I see everything. I hear. I hear everything. And it all because you have come into my life. You're presence, it draws my attention. The thought of you, it makes me focus. The longing for you, it draws me near. This is happening. What now?
What now?
Monday struck with truth. I had made a promise to be honest with another human but what about myself? Was I truly being honest with myself and my situation? There was a lot that I was holding on to and it wasn't because of that person, it was because it was things that I had…
Today
As I was walking out on the lot today I noticed something. And not just anything, I noticed a dead bird laying in the parking lot. I took the time to kneel down and actually see the corpse of the bird and I felt a sadness fall over me. There's a beauty to this life…
Terrified
This day is terrifying. Never in my life did I think I would be here. But I guess that's what life is about. Everything is thrown at you all at once and it's God's way of testing our strength... Today, I'm weak. I feel sick and nervous and my emotions are all over the place.…
Something cool
I've missed this. Being able to sit down and share my thoughts while still using a keyboard. Everyone is all about this touch screen life... I don't know that I'm all about that yet. I really do miss the times when I was growing up. Cell phones weren't something that everyone had or needed to…
Trying something new…
Here goes... A few months ago I met this guy who came in with his brother to buy a car. Super cool guy, wasn't really looking for anything. Then a couple of months later I ran into that same guy at a local bar. I was curious. Messaged his brother and pulled a lame excuse…
Today I learned something…
Well I decided that I wasn't just going to have you tell my family how you feel. So I texted you... That was dumb. I find that history is repeating it's self. Someone who gave you everything you ever wanted, the lust, the lack of arguments, instant apology. Someone who is terrified to lose you.…
.simple.
This morning I get to work and I'm sitting here thinking, "wow, I really shared a lot with this person" The more I thought the more the tears started to well up in my eyes. I haven't know him for very long and there is a lot that I don't know about him. I haven't…
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