Something has happened... I feel. I feel everything. I see. I see everything. I hear. I hear everything. And it all because you have come into my life. You're presence, it draws my attention. The thought of you, it makes me focus. The longing for you, it draws me near. This is happening. What now?
What now?
Monday struck with truth. I had made a promise to be honest with another human but what about myself? Was I truly being honest with myself and my situation? There was a lot that I was holding on to and it wasn't because of that person, it was because it was things that I had…
I think…
I started writing on this site about 4 or 5 years ago and my reason for doing this was to get it all out there and let it go... So, here we go. I have my private posts because they are something that I can see and I can go back to so I remember…
Today
As I was walking out on the lot today I noticed something. And not just anything, I noticed a dead bird laying in the parking lot. I took the time to kneel down and actually see the corpse of the bird and I felt a sadness fall over me. There's a beauty to this life…
Terrified
This day is terrifying. Never in my life did I think I would be here. But I guess that's what life is about. Everything is thrown at you all at once and it's God's way of testing our strength... Today, I'm weak. I feel sick and nervous and my emotions are all over the place.…
Something cool
I've missed this. Being able to sit down and share my thoughts while still using a keyboard. Everyone is all about this touch screen life... I don't know that I'm all about that yet. I really do miss the times when I was growing up. Cell phones weren't something that everyone had or needed to…
So this day…
On this day I finally managed to get on your nerves... Is it wrong to think that it was kind of amusing? You get this adorable look on your face that just makes me smile, which probably makes you more irritated but i now understand the expression "you're so cute when your mad". My love,…
Can’t wait.
The way it feels. The rush, that high. Something about the blood pumping, and hearts racing, it feels like a drug. I'm due to overdose. It's an addiction that I crave. A rush I feel spontaneously with just the thought of you. When our lips touch, the sparks keep flying. When you hand caresses my…
Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t
Pondering today if this is the right path for me. Bundled up beyond belief waiting for the clock to strike 8 and thinking, "where do I want to be in this company in 5-10 years? This answer is, literally no where. The sales managers work ridiculous hours and literally deal with crazy demands daily, the…
Just thinking… Again
We put our best out there. Explain our truths, our lies and why we are flawed. Divulge our secrets, let down our mask and breath. But just for a moment. Then the wall goes up. The sentences are short. Words get colder and secrets are never spoken of. The moments we allow ourselves to give…
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