I don't understand this concept. You get together with a bunch of other people to get them business. More people know you, the more people you'll have for refferals. There's meetings, there's events that you should attend to show your support and then there's the "homework" you have to do as well. It's like going…
We talked…
I'm hooked... but I'm happy. There's a joy you bring to my soul, a sense of happiness. Your eyes meet mine and I melt. You've saved me many times and I'll never be able to repay you but I will try by showing my appreciation and giving you a feeling you won't find anywhere else.…
Burn
There's this pain in my chest. There's this anger in my head. My eye's are constantly welling up. I hate my choice. I hate that I wanted to walk away. I hate how alone I felt but I hate myself more. I could have just shut up and been okay with what was happening. I…
Today
As I was walking out on the lot today I noticed something. And not just anything, I noticed a dead bird laying in the parking lot. I took the time to kneel down and actually see the corpse of the bird and I felt a sadness fall over me. There's a beauty to this life…
A broken heart…
Doesn't just come from a boy or girlfriend, it can come from a father. Tonight I received a call. Grow-up. What have I done for you. Don't ask for anything anymore. Ungrateful. Aggravation. The cause for every wrong move. Better hold on to your ass. You're trying to be friends. You want to stand up…
The right time
When? Here's the questions. What circumstance makes it okay to breakdown when ever? Where is the appropriate place? When is it the right time to break down? There is never going to be an ideal time to not be okay. There's this expectation that if there's anything wrong with you, well hold it in, wait until…
So Much…
So much and in so little time. I don't get this. I don't understand it and in ways I don't want to understand it. There's a side of me that is hidden, there's a side that I don't show unless it's forced out. This afternoon, it came out. For years I've been the black sheep.…
Thursday
Funny thing about today. I woke up this morning thinking that it was Monday... Now this is not unusual but yet again, I am falling into that comfort of working almost every day. This schedule wouldn't be the worst if I could have a Saturday off every now and then. But I guess it is…
Attention
Today has been a very slow day. With these slow days comes a certain attention to detail. Managers look at you while you WAIT for someone to come in. Like we are supposed to generate some sort of presence here. They look at you with this deep disappointing look when you don't have something to do.…
Terrified
This day is terrifying. Never in my life did I think I would be here. But I guess that's what life is about. Everything is thrown at you all at once and it's God's way of testing our strength... Today, I'm weak. I feel sick and nervous and my emotions are all over the place.…
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