Doesn't just come from a boy or girlfriend, it can come from a father. Tonight I received a call. Grow-up. What have I done for you. Don't ask for anything anymore. Ungrateful. Aggravation. The cause for every wrong move. Better hold on to your ass. You're trying to be friends. You want to stand up…
Thursday
Funny thing about today. I woke up this morning thinking that it was Monday... Now this is not unusual but yet again, I am falling into that comfort of working almost every day. This schedule wouldn't be the worst if I could have a Saturday off every now and then. But I guess it is…
Attention
Today has been a very slow day. With these slow days comes a certain attention to detail. Managers look at you while you WAIT for someone to come in. Like we are supposed to generate some sort of presence here. They look at you with this deep disappointing look when you don't have something to do.…
Terrified
This day is terrifying. Never in my life did I think I would be here. But I guess that's what life is about. Everything is thrown at you all at once and it's God's way of testing our strength... Today, I'm weak. I feel sick and nervous and my emotions are all over the place.…
Done.
Just done. I'm over the annoying chatter. I'm done with the snake like lingering everywhere. I'm over the noise. I'm done trying to leave everything at the door when it comes home with me every night. Just done. What will I do? Who will I turn to? When can this change? I do want to…
Cry
Just do it already. Let it all out. I've been patient and I've waited but this is getting exhausting. To sit here, all day and do nothing. Watch the others get hand out after hand out and watch your number stay the same. IT'S SO FRUSTRATING Not only is it frustrating but it's wearing on…
Patient
I know I already said that I wasn't going to do a New Years resolution, but someone brought something up to me, one word to focus on all year. One word that can impact many areas of our lives, one word a year. Over time, I have noticed my biggest weakness is patience, I rarely…
Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t
Pondering today if this is the right path for me. Bundled up beyond belief waiting for the clock to strike 8 and thinking, "where do I want to be in this company in 5-10 years? This answer is, literally no where. The sales managers work ridiculous hours and literally deal with crazy demands daily, the…
Just thinking… Again
We put our best out there. Explain our truths, our lies and why we are flawed. Divulge our secrets, let down our mask and breath. But just for a moment. Then the wall goes up. The sentences are short. Words get colder and secrets are never spoken of. The moments we allow ourselves to give…
2.0.1.5
New years resolution? I'll pass. In the last year I have been broken down, unloved and reborn a stronger person. I may have put my heart out there too many times and I may have allowed myself to believe that the fairy-tale of life is real. But I wouldn't take back that heartache, that pain…
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