I ask for help when I'm upset. "Shut the fuck up." "You're tough, you can handle it." That's what happens inside. I start feeling that lump in my chest. I want to break, I want to cry but I know that no one actually cares about what's going on inside my head. The baggage, the…
The Void
Something happens when we part. It's cold. It's painful. It's a tear. My motivation fades and my chest sinks. Until I'm back in your arms, I will be restless. Until I can feel your warmth, I will be frigid. Until I can be in the presence of you love, all i'll feel is unsettling angst.…
Extinguished
It happened. I was there. The fire ignited and it was... deadly. The burns that come after are healing. It'll take time, but they're healing. We chased it. We wanted to feel it. We ignited it. When a fire burns, it needs oxygen. I needed oxygen months ago. My lungs had been emptied filling yours.…
Simple Man
Is it the hand through the hair? Is it the way you strike a pose right after? Or is it the humming of a classic tune under your breath? What makes you the most complicated yet simple man I have ever met? It's the head bobbing, the animalistic noises you make when you eat. It's…
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Today isn't easy. I miss you. Today, I really miss you. There was hours of silence, nothing. Although everything was fine... The silence without you here is deafening. Frightening even. I just miss you. I worry about when you come home. I don't know that I will be able to hide my tears of relief.…
Spinning
What the hell has happened. A shift. An earthquake. A new beginning. Since you've been back, something has changed in me. I understand what I have to do and I'm just doing it. No question. "Where would you be right now if it wasn't for me?" A question meant as a joke but when thought…
How long?
How long? How long have I loved you? How long have your eyes danced off the light like emerald jewels? How long has your skin glistened off the TV light? How long has your hand accidently touched mine and sent a rush through my veins? How long has your presence startled me and taken my…
Alone
Another night. Another lonely night. There's peace when you're next to me. There's security. When you're gone, it's quiet. It's dark. It's... not the same. Something has happened and it's unsettling that I'm alright with it. I'm yours. There's no more fighting that... But do you know that you hold the best part of me?…
Oh Hey…
Oh hey, I love you. I know that forward but I feel like if I were to every leave this world unexpected. I would want you to know how much you meant to me. Your cologne is stained in my hair, I can still feel your skin on my finger tips and your eyes are…
Starting the fire…
I know that I talked about chasing the fire... and I was. I was chasing it hard. I wanted to feel it. I wanted to feel that passion, that closeness. I found it. I've felt it. Now I can't stop thinking about it. It's a choice, yes. I'm choosing to think about it. I'm choosing…
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