Truth will set you free… Or something like that.

You told me the truth that I needed to hear.

When I walked in and I saw a card game for couples, I knew the truth. When you said it was from your mom, I knew that you were lying but you decided to come out, stop me from what I was doing, look me in the eye and tell me the truth. I respected that.

When I saw your eyes start welling up with the thought of being with someone else, I knew that I had to be strong for the both of us because you were doubting everything… And that’s not fair to her.

I told you that lying to me is unreasonable and you shouldn’t do that and maybe this is the best but to be honest with her as well.

Dating is spending time with someone doing something other than working. It’s spending time with them and having fun, laughing and doing what you know is the right thing. I’m not a dinner and cards kinda girl. I don’t think I ever will be.

I would rather sit at home, just the two of us talking about life than form relationships with other people that could bring drama in our lives. I’m not a double date person, I’ll hang out with people but I refuse to be the couple that always with another couple.

I also value my privacy and going over to someone’s house and having dinner with their family is again, something that I am not going to do.

I would rather socialize in a relaxed environment and eat on my own than do it with other people, that is not my thing, nor will it be.

I’m not a “bring home to momma” kind of woman. I’m a “I want you and I don’t give a flying fuck what anyone has to say about anything” kind of woman.

I don’t like false interactions or making friends with the family to plan gatherings. I’m the thought in the back of your mind that you are trying to push out but I am not a future. I am a breath of fresh air and a lesson in love, life and the art of being kind to people but I am not the one with “forever” written on her forehead.

I am the one that will cross your mind from time to time wondering what kind of trouble I got into this time or how many tattoos I have added, but I am not the one that you are going to fall asleep next to and wake up the next morning urging the kids to come lay with us.

I am the one who you will remember lived a wild life, didn’t care what anyone thought and marched to the beat of her own drummer. I am not one to fall in line or do what I am told. You’re going to wonder if I am “okay” quite often.

Know that I am never okay. I’m in the present and that’s good enough for me.

Take care of yourself- worrying about is a burden you do not want to take on for I will never head your warning to be safe.