For years- I have been impressed with this woman. But why?

Was it her fierce freedom? Inspiring young woman to do whatever the hell they wanted without fear of being told “you’re a girl, you can’t do that”? Was it her smile? Her “vibe”?

Legends NEVER die. She was all of that and more.

Today is weird, I think about her more often then someone who has never known her should. I guess she impacted me more than even I know.

I’ve had the honor of meeting people in her circle, people close to her and been blessed to hear that we are similar. Makes sense, I looked up to her.

The idea of being like someone is hard, but knowing that you’re sitting on potential that is untapped is harder and maybe that’s why she crosses my mind so often. To know that there is so much more that I could be doing, EVEN RIGHT NOW, and I’m not is an incredible cross to bare.

I heard she said she didn’t want to have kids because she lived a dangerous life… I feel that. However my dangers come from within and I fight the demons everyday of life but I wonder if I took more physical risks, if the demons in my head would be quiet for just a little bit longer.

From what I’ve learned, she had hers as well. Impulsive, did what she wanted and made it work. I should start taking more notes and trying new things just because I want to. Not because I’m supposed to or someone tells me that I should, but because I want to.

Today, I’m supposed to be heading to the Harley-Davidson 120th Anniversary. I’m torn. I have a couple people waiting on me and some that want to go with me. There’s that sting again that I should be doing something more and I’m asking myself, what would Jessi do? What the fuck would Jessi do…

Life works in mysterious and yet calculated ways. Whether you believe in God, Odin, Buda or another higher power- the Devine plan is unknown to the puppet and you are just to trust your instinct. However, when you have silenced it, lived in pain and discomfort for so long for compromising your boundaries, you become confused at a feeling other than just that, discomfort.

What is intuition and trusting your gut? How should it feel? Take risks, don’t be afraid, live your life. Ok, so live in an uncomfortable state for a moment and you should find bliss, got it. What if you’ve been uncomfortable for most of your existence?

What the actual fuck would Jessi Combs do?