Something is happening.

A total shut down. I am closed off but I’m open to the rest of the world. I’m funny again. I’m confident again. I have a pain in my chest but I know it’s going to fade. I know it’s all going to be ok because I will heal this time. I won’t be waiting for the other punch.

There’s a lot that’s happened over these last few years but I’ve always been afraid. And it’s not afraid of the commitment… It’s just afraid of the other show dropping and knocking me off course again.

I’m not afraid anymore.

I feel a weight lifted and I feel… better.