There’s the saying of always trusting your gut right?

You’re supposed to trust your gut when it comes to the poeple that you meet, the situations that you get into and the everyday experiences that we call life… We are supposed to trust our gut instinct.

What if I don’t know anymore what it feels like to have a steady gut?

If I am to sit here and lay down everything that I love, that list is going to go on for days… but it’s when I get to the list that I don’t love… that pain. That anguish… All of it.

There was a time that I told you I would start over but we aren’t going to live together for a year. There was also a time that I said that we could start dating but I was going to take it slow… There was also a time where you and I were madly and crazy in love with no hurt, no pain and all these emotions flying around us like butterflies and other happy things.

I don’t feel anything. I don’t feel much at all but a lump in my throat, a pit in my stomach and a pain in my head. I don’t know where this is all coming from but it’s like it’s skyrocketing from the bottom and shooting up through every sense that I use daily…

I hate the thought of having to watch you go… again. But it’s not the you leaving part, it’s the fact that I have let you go before and I should have let you stay gone…

Where am I? Who is this girl?