When?

Here’s the questions.
What circumstance makes it okay to breakdown when ever?
Where is the appropriate place?
When is it the right time to break down?

There is never going to be an ideal time to not be okay. There’s this expectation that if there’s anything wrong with you, well hold it in, wait until you get home, and then cry and scream when no one is looking. Why? Well because no one truly knows how to handle someone who loses complete control and just let’s the pain and the hurt take over.

Another point is that no one ever really wants to let go. That feeling of pain rushing over you, to me it’s a release, I know that after the rush I’ll be able to breathe again. That frog in my throat will finally come out and I’ll be just that, I’ll be okay. But to get there, to allow that dam to let go, allow it to break and the flood to come out is a trying matter. Where, when and why?

Where will you let go? Where do you feel safe and will anyone be there with you? Do you have someone who you want to hold you or someone who understands you and that you can TRUST.

When? When will you allow the pain and the rush of emotion to take over? When will you officially let go of that feeling. Are you afraid of not feeling it again? Is it a feeling you enjoy? Does it make you feel stronger?

Why? What happened to make you hurt? There’s something that caused this pain. And when the melt down is finished, is there anything you can do to make sure that it doesn’t happen again?

No matter what demons you may harbor, you must let them breathe. If you don’t, they’ll eat your insides until there’s nothing left but dark matter, pain and a lot of anger.

Until that “right time” comes along, breath. hold your own, and don’t fold. Stand strong and know you’re not alone. The pain is here, in all of us.