This day is terrifying.

Never in my life did I think I would be here. But I guess that’s what life is about. Everything is thrown at you all at once and it’s God’s way of testing our strength… Today, I’m weak.

I feel sick and nervous and my emotions are all over the place. Today I may seem cold, hard to read and it’s because I’m going to try to turn off these emotions. I need to shut down. Feeling this much is pain I’ve never endured. I need a sedative on my insides, this feels like a hurricane inside my body.

Amazing how once you do something you swore you would never do may change your life in a way you’re unsure of.

Here’s to the future.