Just do it already.
Let it all out.

I’ve been patient and I’ve waited but this is getting exhausting.
To sit here, all day and do nothing.
Watch the others get hand out after hand out and watch your number stay the same.
IT’S SO FRUSTRATING

Not only is it frustrating but it’s wearing on my ego and my self-esteem.
Part of me wants to walk out right now and the other part wants to confess to my GM that this just isn’t working anymore.

What am I really going to do about it?
I’m going to be patient. I’m going to wait until Wednesday.
I’m going to prove myself one way or another.
I’m going to take action and break the routine, break the mold and stand up for me.

Calm down, let the furry pass.
Stay still, don’t jump out of your skin.
Take a break, over thinking is emotional suicide.

Breathe…