Pondering today if this is the right path for me.

Bundled up beyond belief waiting for the clock to strike 8 and thinking, “where do I want to be in this company in 5-10 years?

This answer is, literally no where. The sales managers work ridiculous hours and literally deal with crazy demands daily, the general manager deals with twice the headaches from service to parts to sales and once you move up from there you’ll be traveling for your headache.

I’ve also been looking at the pros, the money is really good and self-motivated. You don’t work, you don’t makes money. Simple. Also being ahead of the curve as far as new models goes is really cool, but yet that’s more of a hobby of mine. It really doesn’t benefit anyone.

There’s also this assumption that if you sell cars you are arrogant, pretentious and selfish. To an extent, I would agree. Another assumption is you couldn’t get a real job so you sell cars instead and being a female in a male dominant career, you need to have tough skin. You also have to be demanding almost. Someone wants something from you, you have to provide and demand it from whoever is above you on the food chain.

The trouble I am having comes from my enjoyment of socializing with people and understanding what they really want. However when trying to make a living through manipulation, my alcohol tolerance has gone up. I now understand why most sales people have has drug or alcohol problems in their past.

If this was easy, it wouldn’t be half the fun.

Understanding and actually gathering my needs and wants before I jump to a conclusion is a big step for me. I’ve been evaluating the situation now for a few months trying to decide if I made the right choice…. I know I didn’t. Just because you get up set or greedy doesn’t mean to do something rash like I did. I went from a comfortable life and wearing what I wanted to boy collared shirts and the same black pants.

Am I happy?

No