I have an opportunity.

I have a chance to do something fun, something that I have done before, something where I can really be myself and get paid for it.

Isn’t that really what we want out of life? To get paid based on qualities you already have and not having to pretend that you are perfect?

Today I sit here and I wonder.
I wonder how long it’s going to take before I snap, before I just can’t take anymore of the hiding, of the fake and pretend front that has to be put on daily.

Wondering so far has gotten me no where. I need to figure out what is going to make the most sense. Either I continue to work the most hours I can for whatever pay I can or switch back to the old lifestyle that was healthier for me but kept me up most of the night.

Base pay vs. tips
Having fun and being expressive vs. uniform and hidden personality
Being me vs. not

life…