It happened again…
I opened up, it was only for a second but he saw the opportunity and he took it.
He was let in, saw the real me again, only for a second but that was enough.

“I love you”

“I can’t do this to her… or you”

That’s just it. I’m always second.
I’m always the last one that crosses your mind.
My feelings are always the first to get hurt but my heart is the last one in the equation.

I allowed you back in.
I allowed you to look in to my soul.
I allowed that to happen.

This will always be my fault, I’m the reason I hurt right now.
It was my own stupidity that allowed you here.
It was my own stupidity that believed you were “different”.

“everything is different now, I’m different, there’s no baggage. I feel like I could give you 100%”

Funny how 12 hours can change every word you ever said to my face.
Funny how everything that happened was in vain.
Funny how selfish one can be for just a second of pure passion and happiness.

Funny how easy it is…. for you to walk away.

“I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things”